On the Bench
Do you ever feel like you have been benched?
I will take this one!
I have! I start having feelings of rejection, jealousy and betrayal. I start thinking to myself, “Why is everyone else getting what they want and not me?”! I especially have these feelings when I am being faced with a major decision or a major resolution in my life.
No matter how you go about it you cannot make it happen, right! I have tried affirmations and visualizations too. I am learning to let go a little more, especially of trying to control everything and anything in my life to make things happen!
Finding Calm . . .
I am learning to be more open to the possibilities and opportunities and just be a little more too. I have to believe and trust in myself that it will happen in time as well as be in that place to accept it! I am such a work in progress when it comes to having patience and letting things unfold and happen in due time.
I find it a little disturbing that it is the little things that irk me and set me off at times! Also, for no reason at all too! Maybe that is my sign to stop and figure out if I am going in the right direction or not. Maybe I am being shown the next step on my path. Who knows, but it stops me in my tracks or at least slows me down a bit!
Finding Peace . . .
I realize life is not meant to be easy, but why make it any harder than it needs to be! I find it hard to release and surrender, especially with the unknowns in my life. I want to be in charge and in control, however; that is not always possible!
I think part of this comes from not dealing well with messiness, confrontation and conflict and just want to get it over as quickly as possible and move on. Just rip the band-aid off! Then just add in worry and stress to the mix. Sometimes your sanity and health are more important than making things happen by forcing it!
Connecting To My Whole Being (Photos by RSheridan)