Getting OUT of My Own Way
Let me tell you how much I can doubt myself!
- There are times that I am afraid of having what I want.
- When I have what I want I am afraid it will go away or not be what I really wanted.
- I can really set myself up when I am unsure of myself and what I want.
- I can really sabotage myself when it comes to getting what I want.
- I can really tell you about fearing the unknown too.
RESCUE Me From Me!
When I GO THERE I tend to dig my heels in and stay put where I know it is SAFE! Talk about ultimate mind control. Then I start in with wanting change in my life! I am bored and need a challenge. Really, give it up already!
Then not only do I want change, but my curiousity starts kicking in too! Talk about double trouble. Sometimes my curiousity works in my favor by moving and at times pushing me forward! I either respond by letting it or fighting with every fiber of my being.
I find myself on the edge of my comfort zone ready to do battle with my mind, body and heart! Who will win is the ultimate question. I have 3 choices; #1 I have to overcome and change my mindset, #2 I have to start listening to my body and its needs and #3 I have to follow my heart and my gut instincts. I am finding that in nuturing and nourishing my whole being I gain so much more in so many ways too!
It can be hard work when it comes to my willingness to change! I struggle with being more open when it comes to embracing and accepting change. Sometimes it even lights a fire in me to get motivated and to just GET GOING! I even tell myself that if I get on board when it comes to change at least I am on board and can continue the fight from there. I am such a doubting fool at times!
I know I put mental as well as physical obstacles in my way! Especially when I really WANT it!
Rough Waters or Calm Waters?
I focus way to much on perfection and getting it just right instead of enjoying the process and making progress! I falter at times with believing in and trusting myself. I know I need to be tapping into my inner self, my inner confidence and my inner strengths more, way more! I also know that I do not lean in enough for assistance and support from myself and my greatest someones too.
I ask myself some questions when I feel stuck or feel the wheels coming off!
- Am I making progress to get where I want to go?
- Am I committed and dedicated to get where I want to go?
- Am I communicating and connecting to myself to get where I want to go?
Sometimes I find myself pausing throughout the process to show myself some love and a little TLC too! Especially when the going gets tough! Then I can get back into the action again and continue moving forward. My focus changes to being more in the present moment and being more self aware as to what is happening.
Finding My Path Again . . . Creating My Story (Photos by RSheridan)