Life is NOT Always Pretty
I have my moments and I have my “MOMENTS”! I get emotional, ticked off and have “a moment”. I am done beating myself up about it too! I see it as opportunity to learn from and grow from the experience. I take it as a life lesson and at times even a blessing!
I try to take on too much and try to be everything for everyone! Then the cracks start showing and slowly things start falling through those cracks. I know if I take on any more things are going to be flying instead of falling! I know I cannot do it all, so why do I set myself up to believe I can. Then everything that has been falling and flying ends up crashing down around me!
Like a constant game of tug-of-war going on! I feel like the rope in being tugged and pulled. I so want to be that person that finds the middle ground and that can just be happy right now!
I am going to experience moments of disappointment, discontent and oh why me! I need to be able to work through my emotions, feelings and thoughts in order to move forward once again. I need to be able to find solitude and go within myself to deal and possibly heal. I have to find the process that works best for me!
I enjoy the life I do have! I crave many things and have many interests, especially traveling, exploring and adventuring. I need to be let out of the box every once in a while to ignite my creative self. I prefer to be journeying on the trail instead of being stuck in a rut. I love being outdoors and becoming one with nature.
I really think it comes down to sorting out what you need and what you do not need in your life at a given moment! Sometimes this sorting out brings up the good, the bad and the not so pretty in me. I have to reflect on what is right in my world and love on that a little more when life is trying to trip me up and throw me off balance. It happens and no matter what I need to accept and embrace ALL the moments in living my life!
I think of those obnoxious weeds that keep popping up every time I pull one or two! I have to get the weeds under control in order to let the flowers grow. I need to spend my time doing what I love and living the life I do have!
(Photos by RSheridan)