Is Hanging Up On Me!
Hey now that is so not nice! I keep telling myself to stop stressing and worrying about finding my purpose in life. Especially when I am not sure what it really is! I am hoping if I just let it happen naturally it will stop hanging up on me and seek me out instead.
Accepting and Surrendering
Let me tell you that you cannot make the process just happen either! I am trying to accept that, but it is hard to accept as well as to surrender at times. I am starting to feel like Alice who fell down the rabbit hole! However, Alice overcame adaptations and made changes to survive and get back outside the rabbit hole though! I have to remind myself that I managed to survive every time I was faced with a challenging time in my life.
At least my calling is not a heavy breather when calling just a heavy thinker! My crazy mind is all about sabotaging me! Another act of surrender is not trying to reason with my crazy mind either. So stop thinking, less doing and more being.
Wondering and Wandering
I am starting to think it is okay as well as acceptable to wonder and wander throughout your lifetime! In wandering I will find my path or at least clear a path. In wondering I am listening to my inner voice, following my heart and trusting my gut instincts. I will always be a curious person that loves to explore and enjoys stretching my comfort zone!
I am learning that the journey can be the BEST part of the whole experience! I need to enjoy the process more and not just focus in on the end result. Also, that the end result has to be completed to the Nth degree of perfection and/or completion. I call that struggling stupidly and that is so not worth it!
By enjoying the process I can take pleasure in the creative process as well as take joy in playing and having fun! That makes me happy too. I totally believe in working hard, but playing harder! I also believe in living for today and not some day.
Learning and Loving
I know I will discover my calling when I spend time doing what I love to do! What motivates me. What inspires me. What energizes me. I am such an amazing klutz that I am sure I will smack right into one of these days!
I lack patience and very much want to shove the round peg in the square hole some days! It can be frustrating. Sometimes I even miss the timing of opportunities due to my lack of focus and not paying attention to the good and positive in my life! I am learning I just need to let go of being in control at times. That is when life usually SURPRISES me with what I truly want!
(Photos by RSheridan)